some things don't last

I am sooo sick of crying wolf. I just wanna do it already. Get it all over with for good.

I just want everyone to feel half of the pain I feel everyday.

I really have no idea why my mom wanted me to come home. Did she think this would fix things ? All she is doing is make me feel worse by telling me noone cares about me. Yeah ! That’s why 20 times a day I contemplate killing myself. Because I am DOOOONE ! Can’t you see that I am at the point on no return. And everyone is pushing me further and further.

i dont know if this just hasnt sank in or i am really just over it … and you all

i havent completely broken down to the thought that i will no longer be around the people that have been with me for the past two ish years of my life. 

two years of my life wasted getting to know people that wont be there anymore. 

two years wasted getting to know one of the most important people in my life just for them to no longer want anything to do with me. 

yeah its gonna hit me sooner or later and its gonna hit me hard, and im not really sure if there will be any bouncing back from what i might do. 

11:11 and i just wish i never met you

since you really wanna know, this is where i will open up … okay

wanna know whats going on in my head, here ya go. stay tuned.

goodbye, for good. 

this was supposed to be my one place i could go, say whatever i wanted. and it got fucked up. this is where i can go and make up whatever i want. and you fucked that up. 

so THAT is why i changed my URL, because I like being able to say that i want. 

so goodbye, for good.